I am a Jesus pusher!!! When the Jews of the Dispersion are cut to the heart, they cry out, “What shall we do?” (Acts 2:37). Peter does not give them a list of activities or sacrifices to do. He calls them to respond in the depth of their hearts. My guilt is beyond description or correction. There is nothing I can do! Could I simply respond to the love of Jesus as He embraces me in forgiveness?
This is surrender on a new level. The difficulty with emphasizing surrender is the natural tendency to slip into the “doing” aspect. I immediately consider “things to surrender.” I often struggle with the difficulty of “taking it back.” I present it to Jesus, but quickly take it back when I leave. The focus of surrender seems to be on me and how well I can “do” it. It is a focus on “self.” Could I simply respond to Jesus, which allows Him to do in me what He desires? Only He can pry my fingers loose and release me. Even my surrender is not something “I do” it is a response to “His doing.”
This is the basis of intimacy with Jesus. I only know Him in the embrace of His person when He is allowed to “do.” I have attempted to do service for Him; I now want Him to serve through me. I have lived my life for Him; He wants to live His life through me. My ministry has not been pleasing to Him; He wants to minister through me. I have struggled, attempted, and tried; I am tired and have accomplished nothing. I will rest in Him who came to source me. I will respond to His doing. I am a Jesus pusher!!!