I am a Jesus pusher!!! The early disciples experienced “prayer,” (Acts 2:42). They did not only have established periods of prayer, but the reality of Jesus’ presence engulfed their lives. They lived moment by moment in His influence. Prayer in this sense ceases to be an activity, something you do or sessions of requesting. It becomes who you are! Prayer as an activity creates guilt. How many hours a day is enough to pray. How can one hour a day in prayer satisfy my heart’s longing for Him every moment? Is three hours a day sufficient? Don’t I have to devote all of my time to prayer? How can I do this? Prayer has to cease being an activity I partake in; I must “be” prayer. I must be so consumed with Him that He is included in all things. He can even be in my distractions.
We understand this clearly in relation to ourselves. We have lived with ourselves for years. We totally involve ourselves in all we do. We constantly maintain fellowship with ourselves. We go to bed at night and awaken in the morning with ourselves. We never make a decision without involving our own opinion. One man said, “Everywhere I go, I go to, and spoil everything!” I never have a moment when I am not aware of “me.” Will I allow Jesus to be this real in my life? Can He be as much at the heart of my life as I am? He will make me the person He created me to be! I need Him. I am a Jesus pusher!!!