I’m a Jesus pusher!!! I have walked down the corridors of utter helplessness. I have regarded the iron doors clanging shut and knew there was no way out. I have experienced the strength of those in authority overpowering me. I was caught. I have gone up against the evil one and lost the battle. It was as if my very will had been conquered. I was so totally bound; I was helpless. No one came to visit; no one had a solution. Hundreds of voices cried out but each only provided an additional entrapment.
But in the darkest of my helpless estate, Jesus came! How can I describe His coming? Perhaps He did not come at all; perhaps He was already there. He did not come as a mighty conqueror able to overthrow all my defeats; although it was evident His power was adequate. He did not appear as the intellectual genius who could arrest all my confusions; although He impressed me as One who was the truth. He did not roar into my space as one who overpowered all other forces; although the foe trembled at His voice.
He came with the embrace of a passionate lover. He cared for me in my brokenness as a loving mother nursing me back to health. He found me like a father who had desperately searched for years. In that single moment of embrace I knew I was found. He was not one piece of my liberty; He was my freedom. Everything is complete in Him. No wonder I am a Jesus pusher!!!