I am a Jesus pusher!!! “Blessed are the meek,” (Matthew 5:5). Jesus is the sole source of “meekness.” Each step in the sequence of the Beatitudes forces me back to His sourcing. He is the source of my “helplessness.” He is the great creator who designed me; His intent from the beginning was for me to be poor in spirit. But, I have lived among a people who have always acclaimed self-sourcing as admirable. How can anyone discover the falsehood of pride? Jesus is the source! The darkness of self-sourcing is blinding; no one ever discovers truth without Divine revelation.
Once we embrace the truth of helplessness, “mourning” springs forth. It is the attitude of acknowledging my poverty. I am embarrassed over all self-sourcing, which increases my mourning. I live in the attitude of acceptance and response to the Source for which I was made. I do not produce this response because that would be more self-sourcing. Even my mourning is caused by His presence. My heart is drawn to Him. I did not come to Him in order to acquire “meekness.” It was the furthest thing from my mind. Jesus captured my heart. I did not come to Him for benefits but for Himself. He is not an escape route; He is my Lover. As I lounge in His arms and dwell in His presence, meekness is present in my life. Meekness can only result from His indwelt presence. He is the source. I am content in Him! No wonder I am a Jesus pusher!!!