I am a Jesus pusher!!! I never knew forgiveness outside of Him. I truly thought I had experienced forgiveness; however, after His embrace I know better. He did not try to appease me or make a compromise. He did not try to make things right or earn my respect. He did not simply set things aside and forget. He went to great expense in real forgiveness. When I realized His great expense I experienced the bathing of His forgiveness. I found myself in His embrace. He did not give me forgiveness and walk away. While He did not hate me, He could not have relationship with me. No! I was restored. It was as if I had never done anything against Him at all. He treats me as if I have always been His.
I am a Jesus pusher!!! I have discovered forgiveness is not a thing. It is an attitude expressed in an embrace. It is not something Jesus gave to me; but is the warmth of His affection expressed. I do not experience it apart from Him, but in Him. He has gathered me into His arms. In oneness with His heart I experience acceptance. It is a marvel! I have come to realize every sin has been against Him. I have wronged many people. Most people would not forgive even one offense against them. But all the offenses and hurts against everyone else have ultimately been against Him. He plunged through all the sins against Himself and forgave me. I am forgiven; I am forgiven; I am forgiven. I cannot say it enough. What a wonder! I am forgiven! No wonder, I am a Jesus pusher!!!